Three years ago a series of events happened that changed my life forever. Funny thing about forever change- you don’t realize at the time that is what’s happening.
Two years ago a series of events began that I thought would bring me back to the way things used to be. Funny thing about this- things would never be like that again.
One year ago a series of medical interventions began that I hoped would give me my old life back. Funny thing about medical intervention- impossible things are made possible, but with it comes a whole new set of changes.
Through it all, I could hear God whisper to me the first part of Psalm 46:10-
“Be still and know that I am God.”
I heard it over and over again. I know that He is God, but I have been having trouble with the “be still” part. I suspect many of us do. Anyways, I am a “doer.” I need to always be working on something. I have lists for everything and see no reason why those lists can’t be completed. I am fulfilled if I have an “accomplished day.” There is no time for being still, much less knowing God deeper. Did you get that? My accomplishments were my fulfillment.
“Be still and know that I am God.” Funny thing about ignoring God- He’ll put you in a place where you can’t ignore Him. This is not a “if you do this then I’ll do that” type of thing. Going into a deeper relationship with God does not end with getting my old life back. He has actually shown me that I never will.
Funny thing is, He is the one showing me how to navigate all of this. He is changing me for His good, and that alone is reason not to go back to the way things were. The joy of a changed relationship with God is reason enough to “Be still and know that I am God.”